The Book of Adrian

by Pea Green Boat

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1.
Adrian's Theme/Tide and Time 03:35
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Lately life’s been weighing down upon me Maybe I’m not meant to walk this road All of my days were flotsam on the waves The only place I feel alive Among the walking dead I stalk the land We’re torn apart by tide and time Searching in vain for a piece of me I can hear it calling far away Something inside that’s lost at sea I don’t know why… A fresh rejection letter Someone’s lucky day, I’ll bet One man’s trash floats down the river Another’s treasure at hidden depths I’m hearing the same old siren song I can hear it call it calling far away I’ve anchored my soul to a dead end town I don’t know why… Drink deep from the family well A home in hell It’s better the devil you keep The poison is in the water My wife and daughter Slipping out of my reach Ships in bottles run aground (To drain the swamp was all I knew) Too often and too lonely do we drown All the colours fade to grey And all the future blows away All of my days were flotsam on the waves The only place I feel alive Among the walking dead I stalk the land We’re torn apart by tide and time
2.
Storm Shadow 05:32
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Black dog bearing down from above I’m tired of the strain, the itching in my brain Old sparks forge roads in the city And I can’t take the wheel anymore Seen the signs of the nightmare coming The old familiar dread I’m hanging by a thread Of a Sunday afternoon in the hole It’s rising, don’t look back Don’t you turn around I’ve done all that I can to survive This storm shadow swallows the sky My days, grey, dull as the knife blade’s song Singing the end of my days All the anger and the shame and the chaos Clouds rolling in, thunder from within Where the open water sits and it waits The whip cracked white through the colours Haul me away, blind in the sway Of the mountains closing in on my frame Don’t you turn around I’ve done all that I can to survive This storm shadow swallows the sky My days, grey, dull as the knife blade’s song Singing the end of my days A lifetime crushed into a second All of the pain, the fury, the salt and the rain It’s rising, it’s falling down upon us all Don’t look back Don’t you turn around I’ve done all that I can to survive This storm shadow swallows the sky My days, grey, dull as the knife blade’s song Singing the end of my days I’ve done all that I can to survive This storm shadow swallows the sky The sailor died the way he lived upon the land Drowning, but smiling all the same I feel it coming I’ve felt it every single day Circles slowly up the drain Always a spiral’s width away I had it coming I know that you would say the same Cradle rocks into the grave And if I had the time to look at my reflection Then I’d know that I was drowning And had been all along I see them coming Glowing lamps against the fog I wasted every waking second Digging at the deeper wounds Paranoid and pushing back at everyone around me Tell me I’m not capable I’ll tell you all the reasons why Solace in the loneliness and violence Hands of screaming cold reach out Digging at the deeper wounds Hold me down just like I did To everyone around me Sober in the glare surrounding Empty and completely drained Bathing in the freezing chill of silence Hanging on Watch the shadows burn away Another storm survived Reaching for another chance While swimming out on stranger tides Wish the effort didn’t kill me Every single time
3.
Sotto Vocé 01:34
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Silent spirits on silver seas We seek the sunrise and we think we’ve found the key Familiar hands to carry generations And through his pages, we’ll live again Divided fragments bound forever to these boards At least united to be finally restored
4.
Ghost Ship 04:24
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Rising out of her tomb From a limitless pool In the shape of a forest fire Flowering strange Old as the rhythms of weather-worn hearts All of her majesty shines through the gloom And sings in the silence All her prisoners, pallid and haunted Reach out for my hand Gripped by a pain that could take down the navy Wrapped in the sails of eternity, howling in vain Butterfly wings in the east Become hurricanes over a western shore Captive inside ’till the end of time With a misery that can swallow men whole She has slept on the bed of an ocean Seven hundred years and at least she’s awake Silent suffering, secrets held by the grave Torn apart by regret, we are tethered Bound to her core by a silky white thread Night envelopes the light Come, board it up Don’t speak of it’s name Dress it in chains and lower it down The word of the damned, the truth is unstoppable Come and hear us Take this book and commit to it’s pages Seven confessions, the burdens we bear Tell them everything and at last we’ll be free through your words we will live on forever By your hands they will learn from our deeds We were the ones who remained when the rest would depart Sickly and wandering, lost in the dark Do you feel you are one of us? Look in your heart We are one Weary sailor, for years you’ve been searching We’ve been waiting for you to arrive Come and rest a while, for at last you are home You’re the key to the door, we are ready Let us awaken so that we may sleep Night envelopes the light Envelopes the night… Envelopes the light… Come, board it up Don’t speak of it’s name Dress it in chains and lower it down The word of the damned, the truth is unstoppable Come and hear us Come, board it up Don’t speak of it’s name Dress it in chains and lower it down This book of the damned, the truth is unstoppable
5.
Chimera 04:01
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Fish bait The smell of my blood in the sea spray Is making the both of us crazy A terrible night to be hungry, I am sure I was always on the run The story once again restarted Concealing that which is written Cannot be unwritten by the hands that move around the clock Always suggested in the stitches That make up a monster And once there, you know it cannot be recalled twin painted nesting dolls Demanding a life outside these empty walls Smaller and smaller Fish bait The smell of my blood in the sea spray Is making the both of us crazy A terrible night to be hungry I am sure that I have something Hidden inside of me Fighting a whole other side of me Stalking the deeps and the shallows of my very DNA Chimera Heart Competing rhythms stop and start And in the ocean between lives There’s someone else who’s waiting to arrive These moving parts They come to life just after dark And in the hour before light There’s someone else who’s waiting to arrive Cruel fate drawing me in like a magnet Next in line to the flame Coronated in shame Moth bitten, this bug ain’t just a disease Tight comes the chain Wrapping round the brain like a viper Paper the cuts once again Paper over the stains Don’t tell me it’s more than just a disease Chimera Heart Competing rhythms stop and start And in the ocean between lives There’s someone else who’s waiting to arrive These moving parts They come to life just after dark And in the hour before light There’s someone else who’s waiting to arrive
6.
Mandrake 03:15
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I could almost taste that river’s perfume The scent flowed backwards through the valley’s climbs Where only the strongest could survive Hear the distant sirens Oh, for the rocks on which I’d die Hear the same old chorus calling me back again Only a fool would have taken the hand of the mandrake Only a fool with a fortune to waste in a day Where only the loneliest hearts have a reason to stay Long roots take hold of a buried treasure The mandrake’s crying fills up the empty space Stuck in the stubborn soil of home And I’m almost there Where I sleep with ancient bones In a state of waiting, everywhere and between Only a fool would have taken the hand of the mandrake Only a fool with a fortune to lose in a day Digging around in a garden found only in my memories Digging for all that is lost Unearthing the past once more But nothing will ever feel the same That sweet discordant scream If all of my life was merely a dream then keep the dawn at bay Looping through and through Dead and buried long before I knew I rot for simpler days And it takes a hold Feels like molten gold in my veins Reverberations, the further you go down the hole And you can feel them the further you drift from the shore
7.
Octopus King 04:47
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Thine is the glory Promises, promises… I could have everything If only I’d just let him in He’s been waiting That’s what he tells me Climbing the walls Inside the caverns that yawn from within The abyss and it’s secrets Clouds in the hourglass As a monster The pitch beneath the surface can’t disguise What is growing the nightmare’s on the rise Mine is the kingdom And all of her luxuries The door to eternity If only I’d reach for the key Out of hiding Pearl of my dark side Jewel of my cruelty Revealing the monster in me Mine is the power Towering over me Bindings of velvet As the struggle unfolds Ink in my bloodstream Spreading in subtleties Small as the universe As seen through the eyes of a God As a monster The pitch beneath the surface can’t disguise What is growing the nightmare’s on the rise I am the octopus King Eight invocations and eight stolen lives Hear me speaking From eight different points of view You are the action And we are the consequence Out of control I am the debt that you owe The worst that now consumes you Has been there all along Erupting from the fault lines down below I am the octopus king Eight accusations and eight ruined lives I am the octopus king Eight different voices From eight different points of view
8.
World's Greatest Dad 02:46
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Safe harbour in the highest of these walls I ran instead of answering the call Made my excuses in answer to disgrace Long shadows where there should have been a sign I grew weary of the questions in my mind And I found my answers in the darkness of this place Go live your own life Fight your own fights I’ve nothing of value left to share So turn out the lights I gave up my rights The world’s greatest dad Hard lessons in a world that isn’t fair How we grow is in the wisdom that we share I should have been there to guide you on your way In the end I know that I can only hope That you figured out a way to learn to cope We share the same scars and they deepen every day Go live your own life Fight your own fights I’ve nothing of value left to share So turn out the lights I gave up my rights The world’s greatest dad
9.
The Old Man and the Diving Bell 04:48
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Another year gone by Another list of goals Fell by the wayside Dulled by experience Where did the last decade go? Happy birthday… Here inside my diving bell I waste away my days Six hundred feet beneath sea level hidden by the waves Should I open up the airlock And embrace the coming flood? Terrified of living In a world I never truly understood The walls that keep me in Protect me from the weight Of the all-consuming crush Life through a periscope Keeping the pressure at bay One day at a time And I’ll go lower still Located by the pulse Of an over-anxious husk Under the radar’s reach Wish that I could have been Better than this… Here inside my diving bell I waste away my days Six hundred feet beneath sea level hidden by the waves Should I open up the airlock And embrace the coming flood? Terrified of living In a world I never truly understood A seething resentment A frayed connection To a world that grows without me Pillars turn to rubble over time A capsule descending A blinking light below I’ll come to hate you dearly If I cannot find the strength to brave the climb My time has passed Here inside my diving bell I live my final days Six hundred feet beneath sea level hidden by the waves I will batten down the hatches To escape the coming flood Terrified of living In a world that never truly understood
10.
Armada 02:58
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“I see no ships” The admiral said The war is raging But I’m sure that it’s all in my head A blind eye to the trouble ahead With all the tapestry Falling apart at the thread A third and final warning shot And I never learned a thing Uncharted in the aftermath Of a mess of my own making Then out of the blue I’m thinking of you This was never part of the plan Put up a fight but never resist And if I’m clever Then they’ll never have known I exist Torn sail in the prevailing wind A losing battle? Or a wonderful day for a swim? A third and final warning shot And I never learned a thing Uncharted in the aftermath Of a mess of my own making They’re storming the bay As I turn away I watched the armada fall Once so proud and tall Singing songs for the dead (This was never part of the plan) As the fleet went down And the crewmen drowned I turned tail and fled (This was never part of the plan) Dead weight Inescapable rise A single candle burning Fire designed to disguise Where the bell meets the sound of the gun I’ll keep on rowing, but I’ll never escape what I’ve done A third and final warning shot And I never learned a thing Uncharted in the aftermath Of a mess of my own making Then out of the blue I’m reminded of you This was never part of the plan
11.
Leviathan 05:00
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Sheets of rain obscure the view outside my window It hasn’t stopped in ninety days And since the day I lost you I would give the sun, the moon, the stars I won’t… No… Tearing pages from my diary every Sunday evening Seven labours thrown away That great leviathan he swallowed up the sun, the moon, the stars I won’t… No… Inside the darkness of his tomb Open the wound How do you slay a beast the size of misery? How? Show me the way I have to end this now And if you’re in there somewhere Lost without the sun, the moon, the stars I won’t… I won’t cry Still I wait, still I watch Not a movement in the fog Still he rests, still remains With that treasure that he hoards Still the hour, dripping by Halt the moment that Arrives Open mind, have no fear Show no fear A hardened shell of harpoon bolts And I can’t fathom what this means And to that sleeping giant I would give the sun, the moon, the stars To see your light again
12.
The Book of Adrian 03:49
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Every trauma, every single word Written down so that you might be heard Seven lives of internal war Seven lives I feel I’ve lived before And why is this so familiar? A wretched anthology of all my mistakes Ancient prison cell upon the sea Within the grain she holds a piece of me Seven pieces make up seven crimes For seven centuries I’ve done my time It reads like an accusation I feel like it’s taking something vital away Am I getting weaker? Will I ever leave this place? No… If all my life was an open book The lessons are there to be learned Hidden houses full of double lives Drunk on looking back on better times Poison anger running through my veins Deadbeat father drowning all his shame I’d rather have not remembered Forced to confront the harsh realities Self-protection in an armoured shell repeat behaviours that I know so well All I’ve lost and all I’ll never find As a consequence of being blind to the truth It reads like a signed confession I feel like I’m giving something vital away Are you getting stronger? Are you trying to leave this place? No… If all my life was an open book The lessons are there to be learned A fraction in time I open my eyes The lessons are there to be learned A drop in the blue Like starting anew The lessons are there to be learned And if all my life were an open book The lessons are there to be learned
13.
Drag Anchor 05:38
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And so it’s done The hell that we’ve been through This curse is lifted from us And passed down onto you Now look within You know deep down inside We live as broken fragments Of secrets you hide And now she calls your name Away, away We’ve come to haul your soul away Drag anchor, weary sailor For this is your home Away, away By your confessions, you will stay Drag anchor, weary sailor At last you are home The lives you’ve lived The truth revisited The pages scream in volumes Your broken promises And so we’ll roam The final links dissolved Your written words will be your bond For we are absolved And now she calls your name Away, away We’ve come to haul your soul away Drag anchor, weary sailor For this is your home Away, away By your confessions, you will stay Drag anchor, weary sailor At last you are home I’ll never stay I cannot end this way I’ll burn this boat to ashes If I can’t go home Away, away Into the fury of this blaze Drag anchor, weary sailor I’ll never go home
14.
Adrian's Song 04:50
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Was this a dream or another chance at living? Waking as a stranger on familiar shores The road is long, and surely I will stumble But I have to amends for what I’ve done Living with decisions that I made in darker days Always in my heart I knew I had to change my ways Don’t bury me out there A speck of sand floating through the cosmos Peering through the lens of infant prophecy And if I build my bridges back much stronger I know that I can find a way, I know Round the world and back again a little more alone By compass or by starlight, I will find my way back home Don’t bury out here I’m looking to drain All of the venom from within me And I hope that they’ll forgive me Can’t do this all alone I’m tired of the pain Of trying to keep from going under While I’m kicking at the current on my own And I need help…

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released June 30, 2023

Pea Green Boat is Joe O'Neill and Roger Heathers

Written and produced by Pea Green Boat

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Pea Green Boat Cornwall, UK

Pea Green Boat is an experimental rock duo.

Joe O'Neill (vocals) and Roger Heathers (multi-instrumentalist) produce DIY 70s influenced rock, pop, doo-wop and electronic music.

Influences include Frank Zappa, The Beatles, Mike Patton, 10cc, Kate Bush, Carpenters, King Crimson & Ween ... more

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